I have been feeling like I need to make another move in some direction for some time now.
My now one-bedroom apartment, feels big and I still feel like I have too much stuff — like it is time to let go of more of my belongings—maybe all –and set sails for some other shore? Not necessarily literally, but a new configuration of sorts…
I have been sleeping on the floor -on a couple or padded yoga mats- since last July when I sold my big king sized bed and moved from my previous three bedroom apartment. I thought sleeping on the floor would be too hard and uncomfortable, but I am finding it more comforting than any bed I have slept in – maybe ever. So, the thought of ending up on a floor some place, is not a concern.
Things don’t appeal to me and I have let go of so many things once precious to me. The things I used to be concerned with, are no longer of importance. I have taken vows to remain and help all sentient beings, as long as space endures, but I feel like I am not really doing that to the best of my capacity.
Having lost friends –and having been close to leaving this world myself a couple of times– I know that life is precious and there is no time to waste… Having certainty in my path, I now need little else.
I am not sure – but today I felt the need to share these feelings –let them out into space and see it they grow wings, and if so, where they may take me next…
Love & Light,
